The Last One

 Wow. If I am being quite honest, this is the hardest quarter I have ever been trough. I cannot believe I am here and about a 90% in each class. I walked into this quarter with excitement, a brain to fill with knowledge and skill, and a can-do attitude. I walked out with tendentious (typing a whole heck of a lot), probably less hair, and designer bags that I carry under my eyes. Now all drama aside, I wouldn't change this quarter for me. I have grown SO much in these 10 weeks. In the beginning I was overwhelmed and clueless. In the middle I was dealing with terrible imposter syndrome, but right at the very end, I became excited again with the feeling of competence. It was specially a phone call with my mom when I realized I had in fact been learning and processing information. I was reliving my Shakespeare unit with her to see if it just sounded "teacher-y,' aligned, and out of the box. I was using terminology and defining strategies I have learned through the quarter and I had this realization of, "Oh, I am approaching competency!" and it was a really exciting moment. While I still have A LOT to learn and go through, I am feeling more confident, which I think is the best thing I got coming out of this quarter. While I am ready for a very long winter nap, I am oh so excited to stand in the front my of my very own classroom, with my very own students. A special thank you to my boyfriend who held me together through the rough parts of this quarter. My mom for accepting far too many phone calls. And you professor Torres! Thank you for working with us and having the goal of making sure all of us were demonstrating mastery, no matter how painstaking. Thank you for being this crazy impactful moment in my path to becoming an educator. Be proud for what you have done for us, for I am very proud of myself, which is a rare feeling. Thank you. 

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